Month: March 2017

There’s still time. The night is young. 

You know what, I bet they do!
In fact, I bet they’re even more susceptible to getting songs and note progressions and things stuck in their heads than most people, having kickstarted the universe with music themselves. Music is such a core part of Arda’s creation story, I imagine it’s central to the minds of the Ainur as well. 

I wish I were a more musically and mathematically inclined person myself, because I’ve always wanted to explore that aspect of the Ainur more. 🙂

S:DLFj;lkj;lkjsadlfjkk;l   ( /)( ) you are so sweet how why a;sldkfj;lsa

Many moons ago, in April, Year of Our Lord 2013, I started reading the Silmarillion (for real this time, and not just the good bits so I could RP on skype with my boyfriend) and it filled up my whole brain to the point where I was dreaming about it.
And in one fateful dream (this is not made up, this the honest-to-god origin story of my blog) I dreamt about Aulë, and he looked like a giant, red titan, towering over everything, with broken horns and a beard of moss, shaping molten rock with his hands.

That one image was so potent for me, it basically woke me up and I spent the whole morning unable to sleep, thinking about the Valaquenta. 
I thought about what it would be like to be part of the process of making a whole world from the ground up, being impervious to heat and pressure while the earth was still just lava and turmoil under a black sky. I pictured Mairon being born out of the magma, and having the colors of lava smoke, being created and then filled with life by an unseen power. 

I thought about what that whole era passing in the Silmarillion, and what it would have looked like from Mairon’s perspective– what his duties were, what his logical process must have been. And it all sort of stewed together into a very Miltonian story that held together and gelled in my mind, and the more I thought about it, the more the whole legendarium seemed like it could easily be told from Sauron’s perspective, that his motivations were consistent throughout, as the only character who is present from the very beginning to the end. 

And 2013-Wesley thought to himself “OH BOY I SHOULD MAKE A COMIC ABOUT THIS COOL THING THAT’S KEEPING ME AWAKE AT NIGHT!”, and it was a good thought, and so he went about trying to make a comic about the thing. 
But it turns out that 2013-era Wesley was not very good at making comics, and neither was 2014-era Wesley, or 2015-era Wesley. And this was annoying because all those Wesleys were filled with ideas, and there were kind of okay at putting stuff on pages, but Wesley did not have consistent levels of artistic experience OR a consistent state of mental health, and so MisbehavingMaiar, the blog that started as A Place To Put This Totally Rad Comic I’m Making, turned into a full-time world-buildling Dark Lords Ask-And-Roleplay Blog. And this was fine and good, because we’d been dragged into Silm RP by the coolest people imaginable, and we were having a fucking excellent time, and all this was great encouragement to actually Get Good at the thing I was trying to do in the first place. 

TL;DR: I had a fucking sweet ass dream about Aulë that was so radical I wanted to make a comic about it, but discovered I wasn’t real good at comics yet, and so the House I Built For The Comic (aka: this blog) turned into a magical playground for throwing ideas around and world building and meeting super amazing people while I got better at Arting and Writes. And here we are. 

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tumblr has been AWFUL lately, i can load the site like 40% of the time

Yeah it’s straight up not loading half my dash and now it’s stopped letting me make new posts or edit them???  Extremely dubious. I smell an update on the wind. Brace yourselves. 

(( Safari is doing better than Chrome for me atm. At least I can post!))