
The bull? No, too impersonal for me… As a form of ritual execution, perhaps, but not for torture.
As to my favorite method, I suppose it depends on what my goal is. Is it a threat to others? A corrective punishment for willful thralls? A means of gaining information? Perhaps personal satisfaction?
I am not a torturer by trade; it is a relatively new craft I’ve had to learn since joining Melkor, one I’ve come to appreciate– though if I am honest with myself, I may have had the aptitude for it long before I came to Angband; I simply never had cause or desire to exercise that potential while serving Aulë. It was only a small push, to think of living things as objects upon which I could exert my craft. Indeed, it did not take much creativity to turn the tools of my old trade into tools of the new. One can use a hammer, chisel, tongs, and hot iron for more than just metalwork.
In many ways, I view it as an extension of my occupation as a smith, or rather, it’s reversal. It is a very intimate and somatic form of deconstruction.
…I don’t wish to romanticize the practice too much; it’s a simple thing to hurt people, to use pain to force one’s will on another. But there are more and less artful ways of going about it; one must consider it a tool to achieve a particular end, and keep the desired result in mind while working towards it. It is essential to consider the particular weaknesses and values of one’s victim, to think of each as a unique project. Otherwise it is simple butchery, and nothing more.
The Quendi, now… I can say with certainty that I take a personal interest the Quendi. They pose a most engrossing challenge– they can endure much more, for far longer, than any other creature, and yet, their spirits can shake free of their body if the torment to their psyche is too great. One must be delicate. It takes time to create a masterpiece, the ones whose taming is so thorough they can be released back to into the world and yet remain yours, always returning to their cage. I appear to have gotten a taste for it over the centuries; I am embarrassed to admit, there are certain elves I would pay dearly to get on my table, that I’ve passed hours imagining how to disassemble most intimately. A few of my… earlier projects got away from me, and the desire to get them back still feels like a hot coal in my breast.
I am getting carried away. As I said before, torture is not something I intend to hold aloft as a true art form– It is a practical tool with a practical purpose, and the fantasy of it is seldom its truth. But still. The power it gives you over creatures of flesh and blood is rather intoxicating, isn’t it? If that prospect held no allure for me, I would not be where I am today.
I am not proud of everything I have become since I left Aulë, but I suppose there’s no use in denying what I am. I’ve earned the names I’ve been given.


















