Tag: …a nerve was struck

You have no idea what you cost me, little girl…

My throat, the castle, even my wolves— all those were drops in the sea of my humiliation. It was my one great tactical failure of the First Age, and even that might have been forgiven… 

I had planned to make a swift return from Taur-nu-Fuin after I healed… but the wound continued to drip, and my mind was clouded with blood-famine and wolf-hunger. How could I beg forgiveness as a ravening animal? 
My recovery was slow, and by the time I returned to Angband to make amends, Melkor was not the same. His paranoia and his dependencies had grown thrice over, his spirit and body emaciated beyond recognition…

I threw myself on his mercy and worked to redeem myself, thinking that all ills could be reversed in time…  I did not know that time was limited! I did not know that I had wasted the last precious years of my Master’s golden fire, before he was consumed utterly by tarnish and by fear! I did not know that he could be taken from me! THAT is what you stole! Time the Valar gave back to you and your beloved that I will never have! I will never forgive you, I will never stop hounding your bloodline with misery and death— because of you and your hateful Song! I spit on you and your happy end!