💭 – So Thû…. Thoughts on that one Vulture maia, Eönwë?

Dangerous. 

I am aware that I’ve gained a reputation for cruelty during my time in Middle Earth, but I assure you we have tales of our own about him. Were he not on the winning side of history, or were my Master’s folk deemed worthy of even an ounce of pity by the Eldar, I would not be the only Maia to have earned the moniker “Gorthaur”. 

admirable-mairon
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Maybe biology? As in how an elf works on the inside which you can’t know unless you’ve opened a couple of them up. I mean – That’s knowledge that should be technically terrifying but also sincerely useful

Holy shit you’re right X’D  fuck me, that’s actually perfect. There’s no one to dissect in Aman so if they ever have to do surgery or set a bone or something their medical knowledge is WAY behind their knowledge of say, metallurgy. I mean, they’re immortals who don’t age or get sick except in ~spirit~, so it’d be of limited use in the first place, BUT, hey man, when you break your leg falling off a horse or have a little forge accident, knowing how blood and bones and organs work is probably pretty valuable! 😀 Just don’t ask him how he knows! 

“…And this is the liver. It’s probably the tastiest of the organ meats” 

“Come again?”

“Don’t worry about it.”

Try Fëanor

–My caveat once again is that I owe a long-standing RP partner for permanently influencing my perception of this character and flavoring his personality in my mind.– 

Fëanor is an absolutely fascinating character in his own right, but I confess my main concern with writing him lies in understanding the place he holds in the larger narrative. I love speculating interpersonal scenes with him because he influences so many other characters, and he has some of the most hair-raisingly epic dialogue in the whole legendarium–  but to do that I feel like it’s important to map out his motivations and the place he holds in the philosophical landscape first.

( I know a lot of ink has been spilled arguing whether or not Fëanor is a Good™ or Bad™ character, and…. look. I stan dark lords. I don’t really have a horse in that race. I care about understanding the motives surrounding him, and what makes him an Interesting character. I just thought I’d put that forward in case anyone was planning on planting a flag in me as part of Team Fëanorian or Team Valar or Team Teleri…. Please don’t ;_; I am but a humble content creator living in the Rhine Valley of the Great Fandom War, I wish to farm my memes in peace.) 

ANYWAY:  Essay to follow. 

Aside from Melkor, Fëanor is THE voice of individualism and exceptionalism in a world whose dominant philosophy is deontological (am I using that right? It’s the Kant one). He’s the very definition of a Renaissance Man; a brilliant polymath and believer of the value and agency of individuals, living in a literal theocracy where the gods themselves are a present and real force in everyone’s lives. 

The Valar do not acknowledge advancements made by an individual as being the sole property of the individual, because no advancement is made in a vacuum–  everything is made possible because of collective effort, or greater harmony; everything finds its source in something higher, all the way up until you reach the Creator: All things have their uttermost source in [Eru]– therefore Eru’s will is the universal rule, the source of moral obligation. Those who will defend authority against rebellion must not themselves rebel” –because defending the natural authority that stems from Eru is a moral imperative, that must be followed even the outcome is bad. 

Melkor defies this rule and is punished for it again and again; Aulë defies this rule but repents and is forgiven (it is Aulë who defends Fëanor’s reluctance to hand over the Silmarils, because he is uniquely able to sympathize with the emotional weight of sacrificing one’s own work out of duty); and Fëanor challenges this rule at the feet of the same gods who enforce it. 

The way the narrative frames the issue of ownership of the Silmarils is very telling: Fëanor is said to love the Silmarils with a “greedy” love, forgetting “the light within them was not his own”. The presupposition is that his love is greedy because everything, ultimately, belongs to Eru, and anything made with natural resources is held above individual ownership. It is expected that you should create not for one’s self but for the will of Eru– that is what separates Aulë from Melkor in the beginning. It is an unspoken assumption that it is Fëanor’s duty to share his gifts– but he is not forced to do so.  His actions are merely frowned upon, up until the moment where he is asked to break the Silmarils for the sake of restoring the Two Trees. And of course he refuses. 

Would the Valar have forced him to break the Silmarils then, if Melkor hadn’t stolen them? I don’t know. I think it would probably have gone to trial in the Mahanaxar, and whatever the outcome, it would probably have led to an ultimatum set in law thereafter. 

I think Fëanor has a strong case for his refusal, which would likely find support from many elves and maybe some Ainur. He was not the only one in post-unchained-Melkor Aman to develop a sense of private property, but he was the only one to claim exclusive ownership of his craft. (The Teleri equate their Ships with the Silmarils as treasures that cannot be replaced or bought for any price, yet the Ships belong to their people collectively, and they freely attest learning their shipbuilding from the Oarni, Ulmo’s Maiar– this gives them the benefit of propriety. Because they acknowledge their debt to divine provenance, their refusal to give Fëanor use of the ships is not the same as Fëanor’s refusal to render the Silmarils to the Valar, in terms of the value system in-text.)

A case could certainly be made that the light of the Trees was given freely for the benefit of the Elves– there was no condition set upon its use or enjoyment. If that light was NOT given unconditionally, what then is the condition for the use of ALL things made by the Valar? If the condition is that no one may create for private use, why was this condition not made clear earlier, before the elves agreed to come to Aman? Are they or aren’t they free? Was Melkor lying, or stating a truth for his own benefit? 

Regardless of good intentions, it WAS the Valar’s decision to bring Melkor to Aman and free him, and it was they who failed to protect the Elves and the Trees. If all duty and moral law come from the Valar, and the Valar are proved fallible, it is an act of SUPREME faith to continue to trust in their authority, and it’s hard to blame the Noldor having their faith shaken. The Valar failed to provide safety in their own home, had their exclusive source of light destroyed, and then they looked to Fëanor to provide the solution by breaking the thing he most treasured. To Fëanor, of course this looks like proof of his least charitable suspicions. 

–And I do want to note: the Valar ending up looking so extremely culpable is part of why they hesitate to pursue the Noldor or take immediate action to stem the conflict; the Valar are ALSO shattered by what has happened, their faith shaken. Manwë can’t help but love the elves, and to love this incredible prodigy who burns so brightly; he’s devastated that there is no winning Fëanor back from his rage and guilt and pride. There is nothing Manwë can do that will not appear to confirm his brother’s lies and half-truths, so he holds back, and the tragedy keeps unfolding.

If Fëanor’s rebellion had not escalated after the Darkening, the Valar would probably have had a long and uncomfortable century of subpoenas ahead of them.  And that would also have been interesting! But not nearly as interesting as the bloody clusterfuck that happens instead. 

…But all of that is just floating around nebulously in Meta Space. That isn’t what motivates Fëanor’s character, it just clarifies the environment he’s in. 

What motivates him is a delicious mixture of Pride, Conviction, Dedication, Stubbornness, Curiosity, Passion, Outrageously High Standards, A Reasonably Accurate Sense Of His Own Skill And Importance, Entitlement, and Paranoia.

The pride and sense of importance are genuinely well come by; there’s a tangible metric by which to measure Elven Greatness, because spirit is a real and tangible thing for Elves, and Fëanor has enough spirit in him for like ten whole Da Vincis.

His father is a great leader, but his mother was a woman who was as peerless in skill and dedication to her craft as he became. His mother likewise took a strange and tragic road of her own choosing. You cannot forget Miriel when putting together the pieces of Fëanor. She colors his entire world. She’s the first thing lost to him in a land purportedly free of sorrow and death, the first failure of Paradise. “Surely there is healing in Aman?” No. Not for her. She keeps her mysteries, partly because there is so little written about her, but to my imagination this is also because she does not owe us an explanation. You will hold her blameless in this. She will not force herself to feel what she does not feel. She will not stay for you, not for love nor duty.  I feel there is more of Miriel in Fëanor than Finwë. I can’t prove it with citations, but it’s something I’ve always held to be true.

In this way, Fëanor comes by his Paranoia honestly as well. Paradise is full of broken promises; immortality is conditional, fealty can be broken, trust betrayed, love replaced. Comfort is fleeting. Safety is an illusion. Everything will be taken from him unless he nails it down himself. The only thing that matters is true loyalty; the loyalty of blood, of immediate kinship. He demands it of his following, and demands it of himself in return.  His loyalty does NOT extend to those outside his inner circle, particularly not his half-brothers or their followers. 

Curiosity, passion, dedication are the very blood in his veins. His enthusiasm is infectious, but there are few who are privileged enough to share a part of it.  Only those closest to him have seen his warmest and most brilliant side, impossible to stand in the glow of and not feel it kindling your own excitement and love. Even outside the scope of his intimacy, it is impossible not to be affected by his charisma, his conviction, his eloquence. His praise is so sparing it is valued greater than diamonds, his professional regard worth spending a lifetime pursing. His scholarship is legendary, but he keeps his own council, and does not reveal his processes to anyone who has not earned his rare approval. He is the greatest mind in Arda. A crown prince, the heir to a divinely chosen king. A paragon, a wonder of the world. …So why shouldn’t value himself and his lineage above those of lesser princes and their followers? He has proven every day of his life that he is greater and more worthy than they. Even the gods covet what he has made– should he think less of his abilities than they? And what are his half-brothers but the product of his father’s compromise, Finwë’s one act of weakness in his grief, an insult to his mother’s memory? A dilution of the perfect union that created him. (Have you eyes? Could you on this fair mountain leave to feed, and batten on this moor?) 

Fëanor does nothing by halves, he runs either hot or cold but never tepid. His intensity is enough to overwhelm all who cannot match it themselves– or those with enough self-assurance and good sense to weather it unfazed.  Nerdanel has always seen past the glamor of Fëanor’s conviction to the flesh and blood beneath. She is not intimidated by his moods of roaring fire or crackling ice; she is not swayed passion over reason, not impressed by grandstanding. She respects dedication and skill, but does not put them on a pedestal– she knows that one turns into the other with time. She has her own metrics for measuring success, and her own goals to fulfill– she does not value his over her own. The years that Fëanor lived in harmony with Nerdanel were by far the happiest of his life, the source of much inspiration, and more love. 

He loves her. He loves his sons. He loves his father. He loved his mother. He can, at times, bring himself to admit affection for his half-brothers, even respect. He demands much, but he is not by nature cruel. His intensity never gave way to violence before Melkor came to Aman. His pride never led to sedition and mistrust before Melkor came to Aman. God, how infatuated they are with each other. They represent what the other despises most, but the parallels between them are inescapable. Fëanor loathes every false, needy, fawning word that falls from Melkor’s mouth, but those same words echo again and again in his mind, so that in time he forgets their source, finds their message writ clear on the walls around him. Melkor will never forget that he was beaten and dragged from his fortress in chains and imprisoned for four Ages because of these pampered, petted, arrogant, entitled elves– the most arrogant and entitled of which has the GALL to look down on HIM, the Mighty Arising, while his glittering fire sits unassailable in the most beautiful vessels Melkor has ever seen…  As soon as they met they were destined for a collision-course with one another, set on mutual destruction no matter what lay between them. 

And it’s this stubbornness, the trait he passed down in equal measure to each of his sons, the absolute refusal to admit defeat or back down from impossible odds, the near inability to compromise or turn from a path once begun, that makes Fëanor and his kin impossible to ignore, deadly to underestimate. It is his stubbornness and pride and the very greatness of his conviction that fans his spirit to astonishing heights, burning hotter and brighter than any other flame in Arda, blinding those closest and burning all in its path, until like all flames it consumes its fuel to the last, and goes dark.

admirable-mairon
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Melkor and Luthien? 😀 we’re all used to Melkor being a smooshy darling and we love him, but it would be REALLY neat to see how he would be written from the POV of someone who finds him sincerely terrifying… Or rather, acknowledges that “Yeah help He’s objectively terrifying but I’m Gonna kick his ass anyway”

THIS!!!!!! ◊____◊ IS A GOOD IDEA!!!!! I!!!! WOULD LIKE TO DO THIS IDEA!!!!!!

NEED TO GOT TO WANNA

thebyrchentwigges replied to your post “Having now written about Dogs, I am now consumed with a desire to…”

TEVILDO!

THIS IS ALSO AN EXCELLENT AND COMPELLING IDEAAAAAAA ◊O◊ GOTTA DO ‘EM ALLLLL

ON THE SUBJECT OF TWINKS BUT REALLY THE OPPOSITE – Does Bëor live up to his name and has a typical BEAR body type? Like Finrod falls in love with a human man with a belly, thighs and arms like logs and hair everywhere?

I literally cannot physically exist in a universe where this is not the true and actual reading of canon 

I dreamed that Thû was a kitten last night for some reason. A cute, White little thing – he was so adorable…! Sure he was plotting our demise all The way, but he looked very cute with his lil tail and toe beans ❤️He would ONLY respond to being called ‘king’ Or ‘lord’ for some reason…. Yeah.

Lord Annatar will see you now. 

Dearest brother. I do sincerely hope life is treating you well – That your furnace runs hot and your dungeons are full. I fear I feel the need to ask for help as I need your sturdy hand and keen mind. See I am having slight troubles finding a sword that fits in this splendid sheathe that I’ve made. There seem to be no swords in the fortress that compare in girth or length to those of your making, and I would be honored to have you join me in my Chambers tonight for this collaboration – Mairon

“Dear brother,

What on earth are you playing at? What sort of smith makes a sheath in absence of a sword? You are going about this all backwards, how did you even begin this endeavor without first having measurements for–”

This first part of the note is crossed out heavily. It continues farther down the page. 

“You were being facetious. I see the joke now. My apologies. 

I could use a respite. I’ve been working too long, it makes me over-literal, as I’m sure you’ve noticed.

Please infer the appropriate amount of double-entendre and salacious humor – Something something Well-Oiled Blade, something something Pounding something something Tightly Fitted, etc. etc.

I’ll be there at a quarter to ten, my minx. Could you find it in your heart to tuck your claws in and give me a shoulder rub? My ‘girthy blade’ and I would be much obliged. 

Yours in exhaustion, 

~Thû 

admirable-mairon
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….. I feel the need to ask what happens to creatures and things that he eats given his body’s properties xD

I am a bag of mysteries  (◕‿◕✿)   

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“IMPORTANT QUESTION FOR THÛ DURING PRIDE MONTH – Would you consider…”

I JUST NOW REALIZED THIS SEVERAL MONTHS LATER – BUT ARE YOU IMPLYING THAT HE’S A BEAR IN A MODERN!AU WES!? IS THAT WHAT YOU’RE SAYING!?

Oh man oh man, buckle up children it’s time for a guide to American gay and leather terminology, with a bit of history, here we go:

*the following discussion is safe for work, but deals with sexual subject matter.


SO: you hear me say “bear” and “bara” a lot as a short hand for big hairy dudes. This is fairly lazy of me, actually; “bara” has it’s own specific origins in Japanese gay culture and it’s been sort of misappropriated by Western online communities– it’s moderately controversial, I’ve seen some people say it’s fine, other people say it should be used with caution… I’ve been trying to move away from using it just because I’m not sure where that line is drawn, so my go-to word for Big Hairy Dudes has been “bear”. 

BUT: While “Bear” is a great word and describes a type of dude I am interested in, it’s not 100% accurate for my Sauron! :’D He is a big hairy dude! But he just ain’t friend-shaped enough to be described as a “classic bear”, imho. 

  • As a little background: “Bear”, in American gay lingo, describes a body type. It refers to a kind of big, muscular and/or fat gay man who is hairy– the muscle is optional, the hair is not. Once you get passed a certain muscular threshold, you begin to move out of the “bear” category and into something else. (I’ve heard “wolf” used for leaner, muscular hairy guys, and also “otter” to refer to really tall, lean, SUPER hairy guys– but I wouldn’t say these are really in the true canon of the lingo.) 

Bears are friend-shaped. Bears are lumberjack-y. They aren’t gym-rats, they don’t have washboard abs or super defined deltoids or whatever. 

Like, THIS is a classic bear:

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…Good ol’ Brian. I’m sorry the game didn’t let me climb you like a tree.

In adjacent body types we also have:

  • Cubs! Round and furry like bears, but usually a bit younger (as the name would suggest) and I think mostly identifying as bottoms? 
  • Chubs! Hairiness optional, but thickness mandatory! Big zaftig gay fellas who are round and loving it. Dudes who are looking specifically for chubby dudes as partners are sometimes called Chub-chasers.  

ANYWAY–

Admirable-mun, you mention the tags in that bear post:

#I’d say he’s somewhere in between? #he’s not as quite chill or friend-shaped as the bears I’ve met #unless we’re going human!AU modernverse #whatever he is he’s definitely Leather

My explanation here is that I have a couple different Modern!AU versions of my Sauron, and there is in fact one verse where he ends up mortal and aging, and as he gets older and relaxes a bit, he gets a bit of a tummy going on; so in THAT verse, yes, I’d say he qualifies as a bear. 🙂 

But for almost all Modern!AUs, he’s less of a Bear, but he’s definitely a Leather top. Possibly even a Leather Sir, because I mean… it’s Thû, right? He’s a traditionalist and he’s into that kinky protocol. But then again he’s absolutely a switch, so maybe not full Sir. Definitely he’d be into that leather-care and service bottoming, but he’s mostly a top, with a shiny, well-organized collection of toys and floggers and probably owns his own dungeon and holds community meet-ups… He’ll be rich as hell so he’s got tons of fancy equipment but he’s also very careful to keep his private life and professional life separate because he’s got a very high-profile job. Depending on what decade I imagine the AU taking place in, he may be very much in the closet about being gay and CERTAINLY not open about his nightlife. He’s all about strict rules and keeping things safe and neat and clean, whereas ‘Kor is a crazy motherfucker who plays on the edge, is a loud and vocal queer activist, has a criminal record and possibly a death wish, and is up for some heavy. duty. messed. up. shit. And Thû loves them so, so much but damn if they ain’t a liability and a threat to themselves and others. This probably all happens in San Francisco, probably in the 80′s… it depends on the AU and whether I go the East-German Refugee Rockstar rout for Kor, or the Extreme Activist And Performance Artist Kor. All of my Modern!AU stuff is kind of nebulous right now, but I think it will still play a part in my finished WesleyVerse headcanons. 

BUT WESLEY, WHAT DOES ALL THAT MEAN??    

*deep breath* let’s start with:

–My qualifications: I have lived with, played with, and dated folks in the Leather Community. I’ve marched with the Leather contingent in the Seattle Pride Parade once, maybe twice now. I’ve been involved with kink/BDSM communities since just before college and kink/BDSM and leather have almost always been adjacent to each other (except maybe at the very advent of Leather when it was more a macho, motorcycle/military oriented thing for gay men who were pushing back against effeminate stereotypes). 

–Caveat: I’m a queer nonbinary AFAB person and my involvement has always been pretty peripheral. Also, I’m under 30, so that puts me in an age bracket WELL below even the youngest members of original leather communities. I was most active in Portland and Seattle areas, but the heart and soul of Leather lives in San Francisco. So, keep that in mind.

…Also it’s been a hot minute since I did anything with this community or any other community or got out of the house in general because I’m a big gay bipolar mess. ALL THIS SHIT MIGHT BE DIFFERENT NOW, IDK. 

Leather is a lifestyle, aesthetic, and sexual preference. Bear is a body type. If you’re a Leather Bear, it means you’re big hairy gay dude who’s into leather and probably BDSM. Easy! 

Like these fellas attending Folsom East.  (Folsom is the big big famous leather street fair in San Francisco, so I’m assuming Folsom East is a similar festival taking place on the East Coast).

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But lots of Leathermen aren’t bears! Some are more muscular and into bodybuilding, or into shaving their body hair. Others like the body hair but keep their physique trim! The important part is the leather, not the body type, but there is still an associated “look” for your traditional Leatherman.  

We are now entering Tom of Finland territory:

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As far as I know, Leather Culture is considered to fall under the BDSM umbrella, though there are probably those who are only into the aesthetic and/or motorcycle-oriented part of it. Leather isn’t strictly gay anymore, but it definitely DEFINITELY started with gay men. There’s also a long, strong tradition of Leatherdykes and BOIs (don’t fuckin’ come for me with ~it’s a slur~ discourse; “dyke” is how they refer to themselves and have since the original clubs in SanFran, respect your elders.) There are regional competitions for Mr. and Mrs. Leather that happen periodically across the USA (I know one or two former Mr/Mrs Leathers). It’s a big community on the West Coast (obviously, we have San Francisco), as well as the East Coast but I’m less familiar with those guys. 

There is a pretty big divide between Old Guard Leather and new, next-generation leather. Old Guard Leathermen are where you’re most likely to find men identifying as “Sirs”, and wear “caps” or “covers” and take their protocol VERY seriously; there’s a tradition of being a Boy (usually submissive or subordinate) until you “earn” your way to being a top, there’s specific codes you follow for how much and what kind of leather you’re allowed to wear depending on your standing, how to refer to each other– it’s all very military. (This is not so much my wheelhouse, I would refer to a better source than me if you’re interested in this topic). 

Leathermen tops who don’t take the protocol as seriously are sometimes referred to as Leather Daddies. (Leather Daddies are more likely to be Bears! But not necessarily!) This distinction is a little blurry? As far as I understand it, “Daddies” are tops and usually doms but sometimes switches and they are just a little less into strict hierarchies and formalities. 

“Next Gen” leather is more relaxed about protocol and has a reputation for being more inclusive and genderqueer-friendly, less about strict role adhesion and performance… it’s all a bit up for debate. The thing you have to remember is that a lot of the Old Guard and original Leather communities lived through the AIDs epidemic– there’s a big difference in attitude between people who survived being sexually active gay adults in the 80′s and those of us who came to the scene well after that.   

Also, hey! There are books on this stuff, so you don’t have to take my word for it! 😀 *Reading Rainbow theme plays* Check out Larry Townsend’s The Leatherman’s Handbook, I think that’s considered the definitive tome on the subject of Gay Leather? I haven’t read it myself but it is referenced literally. everywhere.

You should also look up Pat Califia, who’s like the core of leatherdyke and butch/femme BDSM culture and wrote extensively on the topic– he’s also a bisexual trans man and his erotic fiction is just about the hottest thing you’ll ever read, HIGHLY RECOMMEND.

There are more subdivisions of gay Leather/BDSM! This can get very, very granular and maybe not universally recognized! But some include:

  • Bootblacks! Bootblacks are a very specific type of leather bottom that deal with, you guessed it, boots! Boots and leather care are a big part of service in the Leather community, and it can be more or less a sexual thing. (If you’ve never had your boots blacked and shined by a service bottom, let me tell you, even if that’s not Your Thing, it’s a very sensual experience). Bootblacks can be men or women or NB and they kind of have their own little community that’s known for being a little feisty and eccentric* (*additional sources needed). 
  • Leather Boys/BOIs! They are service-oriented bottoms and/or submissives in the leather community! 
  • Pigs”! These guys are even MORE friend-shaped than the average bear! Pigs tend to be big ol’ dudes with a raunchy streak who are into more relaxed BDSM and like to get reaaaaaallllll kinky. Particularly into fluids. 
  • Pups” are generally younger dudes in the kink scene, like Leather Boys, but who are into puppy play! There’s usually a truck full of these happy fellas in the Pride Parade each year and they all have little tail-plugs in! It’s adorable!
  • And “Ponies”! Into BDSM pony play! They look fucking awesome I love the boots! You see these intrepid kinksters in full pony gear pulling carts and it’s super impressive! 

Also, a part of queer culture that seems to be mostly out of style nowadays in the age of grindr and fetlife, but you still encounter in some kinky circles: Flagging! The Hanky Code! 

  • “Flagging” was a way to signal to other queers what your kinks were. The color of the handkerchief signaled what your kink was, and whether it was in your left (top/dom/likes to do) or right (bottom/sub/likes to receive) pocket told people if you were a top or bottom. (There were other ways of flagging with a bandanna too). This could get about as complicated, creative, and subjective as Victorian Flower Language, but there were a bunch that were pretty universally recognized– like black for S&M, red for fisting, yellow for watersports, etc. Which side of your pants you wear your keys on is still a thing I think? Anyway, the left/right thing is still a coded signal in a lot of kink spaces.  

THIS HAS BEEN YOUR CRASH COURSE IN GAY LEATHER/BDSM TERMINOLOGY, BROUGHT TO YOU BY ME, WESLEY.   


*:・゚✧ NOW YOU KNOW *:・゚✧

“A question for the both of you really, because I enjoy our pleasant casual chats. Do you have any form of favorite form of torture? I must admit that the brazen bull can be quite amusing”

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The bull? No, too impersonal for me… As a form of ritual execution, perhaps, but not for torture. 

As to my favorite method, I suppose it depends on what my goal is. Is it a threat to others? A corrective punishment for willful thralls? A means of gaining information? Perhaps personal satisfaction? 

I am not a torturer by trade; it is a relatively new craft I’ve had to learn since joining Melkor, one I’ve come to appreciate– though if I am honest with myself, I may have had the aptitude for it long before I came to Angband; I simply never had cause or desire to exercise that potential while serving Aulë. It was only a small push, to think of living things as objects upon which I could exert my craft. Indeed, it did not take much creativity to turn the tools of my old trade into tools of the new. One can use a hammer, chisel, tongs, and hot iron for more than just metalwork.  

In many ways, I view it as an extension of my occupation as a smith, or rather, it’s reversal. It is a very intimate and somatic form of deconstruction.

 …I don’t wish to romanticize the practice too much; it’s a simple thing to hurt people, to use pain to force one’s will on another. But there are more and less artful ways of going about it; one must consider it a tool to achieve a particular end, and keep the desired result in mind while working towards it. It is essential to consider the particular weaknesses and values of one’s victim, to think of each as a unique project. Otherwise it is simple butchery, and nothing more.

The Quendi, now… I can say with certainty that I take a personal interest the Quendi. They pose a most engrossing challenge– they can endure much more, for far longer, than any other creature, and yet, their spirits can shake free of their body if the torment to their psyche is too great. One must be delicate. It takes time to create a masterpiece, the ones whose taming is so thorough they can be released back to into the world and yet remain yours, always returning to their cage. I appear to have gotten a taste for it over the centuries; I am embarrassed to admit, there are certain elves I would pay dearly to get on my table, that I’ve passed hours imagining how to disassemble most intimately. A few of my… earlier projects got away from me, and the desire to get them back still feels like a hot coal in my breast. 

I am getting carried away. As I said before, torture is not something I intend to hold aloft as a true art form– It is a practical tool with a practical purpose, and the fantasy of it is seldom its truth. But still. The power it gives you over creatures of flesh and blood is rather intoxicating, isn’t it? If that prospect held no allure for me, I would not be where I am today.

I am not proud of everything I have become since I left Aulë, but I suppose there’s no use in denying what I am. I’ve earned the names I’ve been given.   

so what about Thu in 2D? because buns.

admirable-mairon:

WHEN YOU SAID BUNS I THOUGHT YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT THÛ’S PECS OR BUTT CHEEKS, BUT THEN I SAW IT AND WAS LIKE ‘OH OK NOT THÛ’S BUNS, BUT WESLEY’S BUNS – GOT IT’

@theotherwesley @misbehavingmaiar @masteroftheseas 

MY LEGACY IS OF BUTTS AND RABBITS

THIS IS THE BED I’VE MADE AND I WILL LIE IN IT PROUDLY

yeeeesssss wear the buns, my giant husband. it pleases me. nyahnyahnyahnyaahhh mnnngslurhp i am sated

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